Home

It’s less than a month until I’ll be back in Germany. Until I’ll be back “home”. Home... I don’t know where that is anymore.

I visited Listen To Your Horse (www.listentoyourhorse.com) for a week again. They have been my third host on my travels, I stayed there for 6 weeks in December/January. Arriving there again really felt like coming home.
When people ask me where is home I say Germany but now when I think about it all the places I’ve been to are home as well. Traveling is home.
And now that I got used to being on the way I will be thrown back into my old life.
I look at that with mixed feelings.

Of course I am soooooo looking forward to being back there, seeing all the places again, all the people and all the animals. But I’m also very very sad that this time of traveling is over. It doesn’t have to mean that I won’t go again but for this time it will be over.
I’m not only sad I’m also a bit scared. Scared of what it is gonna be like. Coming back to a place where I used to be when I was another person. When I had seen less of the world, when I had lived less years on this planet.
I feel like I have written these words before, on my post “going home”. But now they mean something else to me. It’s another level, there is another layer.

As it’s coming closer I think about it more and more. Not sure how I m supposed to feel about it and how I actually feel about it.