Aufbruch

Last year, around the time of my Abitur, the final exams of Highschool, I felt very knowledgeable. I felt like I can explain so many things. I felt like I pretty much understood the world/knew what the world is about.

Then I started my journey and with every stop on it I learned more. So now it would sound only logical if I could say now I feel like I know more.

But unfortunately, that’s not the way it is.

At the moment I feel like I know hardly anything.
With each new place I went to I learned more. But that only opened up a whole new world. A world where there is sooo much one could know but I have only started looking into it. I try to catch up but this new area of knowledge is not one drawn in black and white, it’s full of colors. So it is so much more difficult zu understand things.
And when I think I found the edge of this universe the next person comes along and tells me that that is definitely not the end. That there is far more to learn/discover and explore.

I called this post “Aufbruch”. Unfortunately there is no really good translation to English that combines all the meanings this german word has for me in one word.
It means something like departure/start  but also breakup/awakening or cracking open.

A couple days ago that word came to my mind. This year has been an Aufbruch away from home. Leaving what I knew to go out into the world.
And it has cracked me open to all these new ideas and thoughts. I asked a lot of questions, breaking open my believes and my world view. Questioning the world.

Now I feel a lot less sure about what is true but on the other hand I’m a lot more secure in myself. My strength doesn’t come from knowledge of facts, it comes from within.